I had a wobble last week.  I had too many options as a good friend put it.  I was offered another job which I could cycle to (instead of a one and a half hour journey of two trains, a 20 minute walk and a bus) and which was all shiny and new.  I could also potentially ask to just do four days a week and really start to dedicate more time to my "project" which I must stop calling it.  In reality it cannot be more than a project whilst I am still working, but maybe that is okay for now.  I think it might be actually.  The wobble was about whether I could achieve anything outside of work, and outside of having a life, oh and organising my wedding, and playing netball and singing.  It was about whether I had the bottle to go it alone when it comes to it.  

I am over my wobble now.  I can still achieve things, of course I can, I just have to be disciplined but actually I also have to give myself a break sometimes.  Whether I have the bottle, to be honest I am not sure if I will push myself too soon to make the step, but I know I will at some point.  I thought I had to make the jump now, but actually I don't.  I just need to work as if it is the only thing I am doing.  And enjoy it.  What I am trying to do is fantastic, and could change people's lives, so I have to just stop snivelling in a corner, worrying that someone could do it better than me, and get it in front of some people.

I am going to see Lonely Planet in 5 days time - hurrah what a lovely opportunity!

Over and out I have work to do!